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That is it! I am fed up with being FAT! I started my last diet on Monday 5-3-10, I started at 214lbs and got down to 201. And then it slowly crept it's way back up to 213 where i have been for about 6-9 months until Dec 2011 where I balooned up to 218.5lbs! Not happy about it....so...come hell or high water I am doing it for good this time. Mc Donald’s may go bankrupt, but that is a price I am just going to have to pay. I am starting off small, with a goal of 10lbs. It is achievable, and a target I can easily keep my eyes on. The bathroom scale just might implode with all the abuse it is about to get, but since there is no government agency in charge of keeping a fat chicks scale safe, it is a risk I am willing to take. So I will lovingly say goodbye to my raspberry mocha frappachino’s, French fries, and Ice Cream this weekend. Dear lord, I have a giant box of clothes that I love, that I haven’t seen in years. I am sick of these fat clothes. Sick of being out of breath all the time. Sick of not being able to keep up. I suffer fromPCOS, polycystic ovarian syndrome which is the symptomatic version of PCOD. My last glucose test was not good. I am now insulin resistant or a more fatal term, pre-diabetic. I cannot continue to torture my body this way anymore and expect to have a wonderful long life. I have tried the drug Metformin in the past, and it made me feel ill all the time. I will have to do the Atkins or South beach diet, as anything with carbs of any kind, is a no-no for my disease. I will need to go shopping this weekend so that I am prepared on Monday morning with a breakfast that will he. Before my long drive to work, that results in being hungry by the time I pass McDonalds. I would like to actually drive BY the golden arches, rather than be lulled by the smell of sausage and hashbrowns. And……while I am at it, I think I will quit smoking too!


So there you have it. I said it. Put it in writing. I surely must have to do it! Right?


Join me for a wild Ride!

Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, May 4, 2012

Day ?? may as well be day one again!!!

Weight: 203
Cigarettes: ashamedly....20+

Well, it's been so long since I actually sang my war cry, and decreed to do this once and for all.....I can't even remember what 'day' of the diet it is.  Lets just call it day one again for arguments sake, as I could always use a fresh start on any given day.

The good news is that I have lost a few more pounds and am almost into my badonka donk jeans.  I can get in them and zip them up, but I would probably bust something if i actualy wore them.  I figure 5 more pounds and they will be good to go.  However, I can now get into my, and wear, my other two favorite pairs of jeans....woo hoo!!!

Another Cool thing is that I decided to cut my hair off and wear it straight.  I also got a new tattoo, that is super cool, and is the symbol for me to use as a guiding light, to show the way to my super sexy new me.  To remind me what my mission is and to stay focused.  Next stop.....under 200 lbs....and another tattoo!
So I should probably get my hands out of the oreo bag!

Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, March 9, 2012

B'donka donk jeans here I come

Weight: 210
Cigarettes: too many

Well stress and drama as usual spark a bit of weight loss, but a chunky girl has to take it where she can get it, right?

I had gained a couple pounds back from falling off the wagon, and I lost 6 lbs in the last 4 days. Unfortunately when I get back from our camping trip this weekend I need to go see the doctor. I'm a bit scared as my heart keeps racing. Not drug induced as I am not, and have not, been taking any kind of weight loss supplements for a while. So it's just pure stress.

Also when I get back I'm gonna start my pilates work out, that should help with the stress.

Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, January 13, 2012

Day 10....

Weight: 113 Cigarettes: 8... so far

First a shout out to Jillero from the 'jack ass'.....hey girl.....waz up?  Does being drug BY the wagon count?

I guess i am doing all right.  I have lost 5.5 lbs in 10 days.  I wish it was more, but my friday jeans feel much better today than they did last week.  I was sabotaged by my boss who bought me a box of 6 giant choloate covered pretzels.......HELLO??  Would you give a crack adict a $20 rock....or a pot head a dime bag...an alcoholic a bottle of nyquil?  UM....NOOOO...... So...I gave one of the six away and scarfed down the other 5 right quick.  Oh my was that a good afternoon.  It was like an acid high, trippin in moon dust with the fairies and unicorns......

Other than that I have been pretty good and faithful and need to be better this next week if I intend on getting back in the next pair of jeans. So I thought of a new word for my fancy leapord victoria secret bra.....Fat'abulous.....or .....Fatto Fabulous....you pick.....kinda like 'ghetto fab' for the fat chicks!

Sometimes I have to wonder though if my scale is not quite right.  I feel like the digital ones have more room for lying than the one you can rock back and forth on and see the needle sway back and forth until you hit the best number for your ego and self esteem....within all physics and gravity laws of course...ha ha ha~

Enough for now.....
Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, January 6, 2012

Sensa diet Day 3

Weight: 216 Cigarettes: 13


Day one was a nightmare....but that was from the Medi-Fast cardboard.  I am so glad my best friend lost a lot of weight using Medi-Fast.  I however gained weight.   This time around I am going to stick with what works and hope that the Sensa will give me the 'will' power to keep going and be satisfied.  I got out my shaker from my free trial. I opened it up and took a whif.  The salty side smells like herbs and the sweet side smells like candy or powdered sugar.  Then I sprinkled a little in my hand and tasted it.  The salty side has no taste that I can tell and the sweet has a hint of sweetness to it like a splenda or something.  They both are a teeny bit gritty by them selves, but i have not noticed any difference in the texture of my food.  They seem to disolve quite quickly.  The sweet seems to enhance the flavor of sweet things I eat, and the salt really doesn't change anything that I can notice.  I can say that I do notice my selfe being aware of having eaten enough and am able to stop eating at that point.  Before...I always did as my mother raised me....and cleaned my plate.

Day one I used the sensa on my left over Medi-Fast....that was a joke.  I was in a craving munchie PMS horror show that did not end until I went to bed.  So the next morning I got up and went back to low carb.  Had a half a piece of grilled chicken for breakfast with my coffee and then I had El Pollo Loco leg n thigh and side salad w beans.  For dinner I had pot roast w a small potatoe and a couple pieces of carrot.  Of course i sprinkled away on my food and low n behold...I was satisfied.  Yesterday and today i had some chinese mongolian chicken and hot n sour soup...there was enough for two days, so that was my yummy lunch.  Last night I had pizza at my sons request and with the Sensa I was able to only eat 2 slices instead of my usual 2-4 slices.  As of today I have lost 2.5lbs in 3days.  And I just barely squeezed into my largest pair of jeans.  So I guess...."technically" I am still a size 16.....though spending the day being sliced in two is not the best sense of size 16 i can think of.  It is my largest pair of 16's, I would much rather them be loose and fit into my smaller pairs of 16's.  Maybe next friday I can get into one of those pairs.  Fridays are casual days at work and jeans are the only warm things i have to wear on fridays....last two weeks i had to wear capri's....brrrr.  Not funny!  So if i can get one of those other pairs on next week...or this pair allows me to sit straight in my chair and still breathe...that will work too.  for now...2.5 is not bad and certainly a good way to start of the diet.  It is now Friday and the weekend is upon me in a few short hours.  Tommorow I am going on a long awaited trail ride with a friend which ought to burn a few calories as well as chap my hide.  I miss riding my horse and since it has been a very mild winter....I will have to take advantage of the nice weekends when they present themselves.  I plan on giving up my coffee next week...or at least half of it.  I think it is a major culprit for sure...but i have gotten addicted to the coffeemate peppermint white mocha creamer...YUM!!  thank god it is seasonal!

Keepin it "Sensa"ble
Michelle

Wednesday, January 4, 2012

New Diet....Check it out

Day One....AGAIN....
Weight: 218.5 lbs
Cigarettes: 18

Well, here I sit, just as fat as ever! I guess stress and what not had caused me to find a few of those lost pounds…not that I was looking for them. Then I shredded my knee and became stationary for a few months….well that helped me to find a few more lost pounds that I swore were gone for ever. But, as always…..I regret the day I threw out all my winter fat clothes! It’s cold and I refuse to buy new clothes.


A few weeks ago, I was suffering from insomnia one night as I frequently do and of course a diet infomercial came on and razzle dazzled me to pick up the phone and get my ‘free’ trial. I suppose the PMS wasn’t helping as I teared up at the very sight of myself in the mirror. How could I let myself gain 18lbs?? I haven’t been this heavy in YEARS and I was not skinny to start with. Not to mention, I have been the same weight for 6mos and in the last 30days I gained 5 more lbs. Not only did I throw out my fat clothes…I threw out my biggest “skinny” clothes too. And to define “skinny”, I mean…..the “this is as fat as I ever want to be again”. My REAL skinny clothes are in a box in the attic. For now, I have nearly nothing to wear….at least in the winter department. Capri’s are getting a bit cold at 40 degrees!!!

So when I saw this infomercial with a reality tv star from a show I watch, Patti Stanger from Millionaire Matchmaker ……she lost weight with this stuff….so maybe….just maybe… I could too. Well, now I am not so naïve that I don’t know about celebrity endorsements….but unlike being able to tell if someone really wears their nike shoes, or really wash their face with this heavenly cream, Patti REALLY did loose weight, there is no denying that based on the video…..NOT photo shop pics! So…… What is it you ask….???.....It’s “Sensa”….the ‘sounds too good to be true’ diet plan where you eat what you want and just sprinkle this stuff on it. It is suppose to be odorless, tasteless and textureless.

Now I have tried just about every diet on the market…..over the last 20ys….and that is a lot of diets. I have been quite successful using several of them, but only one allows me to keep it off and that is Atkins. Problem is…as always….WILL Power. Cuz oh how I love those Carbs. I have tried pills ala prescription, over the counter and herbal, HGC injections, low carb, no carb, low fat, low protein, FDA guidelines, the china plate diet, Weight watchers, Michael Thurman, South Beach, Atkins, just to name a few of the biggies….. and don’t even get me started on the sheer volume of work out dvd’s I have….that came with god only knows how many pieces of equipment…..all covered in dust. My latest and greatest was the Medi Fast diet, more affectionately called by me….’the cardboard food diet’.

With my cupboards filled with little boxes of chocolate covered cardboard hell, I thought I would sprinkle this sensa stuff on it and kill one fat cell with two bullets. After all, I did already spend the money on this crap, so I figured I would give it one last honest effort. Being that I have PCOD (polycystic ovarian disease) I am honestly not suppose to have carbs….they do a number on my hormones and cause me to gain weight faster than other people…not to mention grow a beard! With my one last chance, I got my Sensa shakers on Saturday and decided to start this thing on Tuesday. Let me say this Medi Fast stuff did a number on me on day one. I was carb crashing all over the place and the Sensa was just no match for THAT and my PMS munchies. So after one day, I called a friend who lost a lot of weight using Medi Fast and asked her if she wanted to buy the rest of what I have. I just can’t bring myself to eat cardboard ever again. Truth be told, I would rather be fat that eat that crap again! I have to say the food bars were not that bad. The shakes when made in the blender with ice, were also not bad, they just gave me the carb highs and lows. The eggs and brownies were the most tolerable and nearest to REAL food as your gonna get. But lets face it….who can live on eggs n brownies?

Of course this is what is so appealing with the Sensa diet, is that you can eat what ever you want. You don’t have to deprive yourself of anything, if you so choose. I however know my body cannot handle the carbs, so I have chosen to go the low carb again and hope that the Sensa will be my Will Power in a shaker to help me eat the way I should. BUT….since the one thing the Sensa diet purports is that the reason why diets fail in the first place….is the fact that few people can survive depriving them selves and then binge to make it up…..so I decided, IF I so choose to eat something with carbs, I will have my Sensa to help me be “Sensa”ble about it. So again…still killing one fat cell with two bullets…..at least that is my theory. I mean honestly….how hard is it to shake a little stuff on your food before you eat it?? Maybe I will burn a few calories while shaking….LOL!!!

I thought I would blog about my journey and see if I can shed a few pounds for hopefully the last time in my life, as I dearly love blogging about my horse journey…..basically…I love writing. I know people will be looking for reviews of this new fangled Sensa diet…..and most of the ones I could find were just one small snippet…..here or there.....of it either working or not working….not the day in and day out of the diet itself. Sit back and enjoy….it’s sure to be an interesting ride.

PS….of course I am trying to quit smoking still too!  My earlier few posts were from the Medi-Fast diet

Be “Sensa”ble
Michelle

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

Things I've learned from cardboard

As I sit here and attempt to eat my first ever portion of “stew”, I am reminded of the things that you can learn from cardboard.
I discovered this weekend a way to perk up my strawberry shakes.  Along with ice and water I added 5 frozen blue berries, a smidgen of wheat grass and 2 tsps of pomegranate juice.  I figured it would be my version of a jamba juice.  It actually reminded me of one, so please don’t spoil my strawberry delusions!  However my delusions of grandure were deflated this morning when I realized that my beloved wheat grass does NOT go with chocolate!  Every whif and every sip on my way to work, smelled and tasted like something my horse should be eating.  I am not a hippie or yuppie, nor do I live in the vortex known as Davis CA, so I will NOT be combining these again.
The bars are good, so I will be ordering MANY of these on my next order because….for lunch….
 I was carrying the cup in front of me as I walked from the lunch room and back to my hell hole of a desk.  I smelled something familiar, but it surely didn’t remind me of ‘stew’.  I thought maybe I was following a fart trail.   I got back to my desk and set it on my candle warmer for it’s indeterminate amount of ‘soak time’ that supposedly makes all this crap edible…..while I completed a call with a client.  The odor became a little stronger and it hit me……it smells perilously close to dog food.  At that whif, I figured I better just salt it now, so the first sip is at least salty flavored dog food.  So there I sit, staring into my cup, praying to my creator, that it doesn’t taste like dog food.  I figured I would start with the broth…whew that is OK.  Then I tried what I can only assume is a potato as it is white, yet it tastes like a freeze dried pea.  Not bad, I can tolerate those.  Now for the ‘beef’. …….remember that commercial ‘where’s the beef’?  Well I think it is in the dog food can, and the dog food is in my bowl!  My saving grace is that there aren’t that many pieces, the chunks are small, and I was able to slurp them up quickly and be done with them.  I think if ever you could manufacture barf….this would be it!
Skinny On
Michelle

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Testing 1,2,3...you can comment now....I think

Weight 203
Cigarettes....who are we kidding here?  I smoke

Hey Jilleroo,

I have been doing the diet now for 5dys.  I have lost 5lbs.  Of course they are the same 5lbs I lost a few months ago.....like crappy relatives....they are hard to get rid of for good.  I have survived all the food, though I have NOT revisited the cappucino.....

In fact...I think it should be illegal to claim a name like that if it isn't gonna even come close to the same planet as it's name sake.  I have 4 boxes of it though.  Got some tips on how to make it taste better...but seriously....I think it is just more realistic to trade with some other sucker for a more desirable flavor.  A gal can dream right??

I know my next order will look drastically different.  I have been having a shake for breakfast and it is kinda replacing my frothy goodness of frappachino's.  I won't lie to you, like I lie to myself....it is no replacement....but it will have to do.

Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, October 29, 2010

Well, my cardboard is finally here!

My oh My!  finally....get to start the diet.  yesterday was my first day.  it was interesting to say the least.  so these meals...you are suppose to eat five of them a day, plus one lean meat and green vedgie meal.  So i started my day off with a food bar....not bad.  not great....but not bad.  peanut butter flavor.  I got to work and decided to try the cappucino...OMG...I about died!  it is far from coffee let me tell you.  starbucks would be out of buisness if they sold that crap!  So I had to remind myself....it is a 'coffee' FLAVORED meal.  that should speak for it self.  so i mixed in the hot water and waited for the 'soaking' period to be done.  i kept stirring, and stirring.....and stirring......but it was not fully disolved yet.  I emailed my friend who has had alot of success on this diet.....
i wrote....."what the F@#$ is floating in my coffee?" 
she replied...."floating?  did you stir it?" 
"my arm is about to fall off, what do you think?"
'i don't know....never had that flavor before, what does it look like?"
"Gel balls from the inside of a diaper"
"yuk....keep stirring"

so i did.  i came to the descision it was jut faster to rip the bandaid and slurp the floaters out in flailed swoop.

it took me about 45min to get close to being done drinking it.  on my third to last sip, as I tipped the cup up I was shocked to see this pile of congealed gloop at the bottom of the cup.  I stared at it for a while, and my co-workers stared at me laughing.  it soon became a topic of discussion and an oddity not to be missed, like the ones you pay a dollar to see at the carnival.  too bad i didn't charge for the show.

a few minutes later, i got up the courage to chew the last of my 'coffee' and be done with it for the day. But now it was time for lunch....which thankfuly was a far cry better on the palate.  chicken noodle soup, and oatmeal for a afternoon snack...both of those were edible for sure...although after the cappucino, i think i could have eaten dog crap and been happy.

6 meals a day comes out to eating about every 2 hours during my waking life.  i never realized how much that would be....untill the food left me full and with no desire to eat anymore of it.  So I couldn't eat my 5th 'meal' of the day.....and just waited until my lean and grean meal.  i wish i would have thawed something out.....but i was tired and lazy and settled for left over chicken and steamed spinach......YUMMM!

I woke up this morning and was 2lbs lighter....too bad I have to lose the same 7 lbs time and time again.

I tried the scrambled eggs this morning....YUMMY....seriously.....YUMMY.....and the crab soup isn't too bad either...though i think they use the word "crab" a bit loosly.....it was "meat stuff" but crab??  i dunno bout that.....at least it tasted like minastronne soup.  not bad.  i think i just may survive this.....

as long as i stay away from the cappucino!

Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, September 24, 2010

Hmm, guess my fat ass needs to blog more!

Weight: 202, cigarettes: no change.

So it was brought to my attention today, that someone wants me to write more about my fat ass getting a little less fatter!  So here I am.  2lbs from my first goal, and after my birthday lunch a few hours ago.....I have lost all feeling to my legs from my pants cutting off the circulation!  Seriously!  But it was sooooo goooood!  As I sit here at my desk, with my pants unzipped, needing to pee really bad, but unwilling to suffer the pain of zipping up to make the trip to the loo.  No worries, by the time my jeans and thong get done with me, my legs will be removable like Barbie's.

Good new is that I am trying a new diet for my birthday.  It is called Medi-fast, and it is something like dehydrated card board.  Apparently you have to soak your food for an hour before cooking it or something like that, but cult masters claim it is tasty.  I have been steared clear of the "nasty' flavors, and will be given a list of approved "recipes'.  I use the term 'recipe' loosly of course, as it basically is just mixing two flavors of cardboard together to get a new flavor.  Reputable sources say that it is tastier than Jenny Craig.  But I say, MY tastebuds will be the judge of that.  It will take a while to get the food delivered, but have no desire to pay extra shipping charges, when I can stretch out the love of a muffin just a few days longer.

Who wants to have a birthday and eat cardboard?  Unless they have cardboard frosting, I can wait to get started!  So here is a funny "Jack Ass' moment, just for you Jill!

So i lost enough weight to get into the jeans i am wearing today.  I wore them last friday, and by 2pm as they were cutting me in half at my desk, they had lost all appeal.  So on my long drive home I unszipped.  Forgot about it when i got home and I got out of the car took 3 steps and found myself a bit of a breeze on my bum.  Now this would not be so bad had I not been sporting a new thong from Victoria Secret, and NOT facing my neighbors window, in which her 40yo nephew peers from often!  Oh well, it is probably the most ass he has ever seen.  I am all about supporting the geek squad, you never know when my computer might crash and i need a little helping hand.  Best to butter the bread ahead of time, so I get no him'n and haw'n in the midst of a blog related emergency!

Well, for now I am just trying not to get fatter as I await my cardboard, ready to eat meals (1hr after soaking)

Skinny On
Michelle

Monday, May 17, 2010

Movin Along OK

Weight: 207 Cigarettes….dangola still smoking!


Well, despite a few slip ups, I still managed to drop 4 lbs. Woo Hoo. 7 more to go, to meet goal #1. All I need to start to really feel better, is to have those jeans not cut me in half anymore. My ankle and shoulder have been hurting really bad the last week, so I wasn’t up to much exercise. Maybe I can get more in this week. We’ll see.

Skinny On

Michelle

Thursday, May 13, 2010

little by little

weight: 208 cigarettes.....still 20.

Ok Ok....

I just gotta say….NO…..I haven’t quit smoking…..YET. I am thinking, maybe next Monday. I have the patches….I just have to make up my mind. It was hard to make up my mind to change my eating habits, and it is hard some days, to NOT think about a mocha frap. Damn McDonalds….I don’t recall EVER seeing a commercial for them while I was drinking them…..but NOW……they are on every channel. I had two hot mocha’s while in Reno, but that was at 6:30 in the morning….earlier than I normally even get out of bed, much less drive by micky d’s by 8:15 in the morning.


Notice how I say drive by?

In REALITY…… it is several blocks out of my way! Anyways, I knew the horse show and lack of sleep was gonna be hard, so I allowed the 2 mocha’s. I have now lost the weight that those dang mocha’s and the burger added back over the weekend. And hope to drop 1 or 2 more before next week.

There is this guy here at work…..he has a candy jar on his desk that is ALWAYS filled with goodies. The real stuff too……like peanut m&m’s, snickers and milky ways! They are calling my name. A sweet lullaby, like the one a mother sings to her newborn child.



URRRGGGHHHHHHH………………..

Monday, May 10, 2010

Back slide but still progress!

Weight 211....cigarettes 25

Well last week, my first week, I lost 6 lbs before friday!  Then I went to Reno with a friend for a horse show.  I did my 'best" to go low carb, but by dinner time 9:30pm  I hade a bacon cheesburger and fries.  I didn't care either.  I drank soda while at the show too.  So I gained 3 lbs of it back.  But 3 lbs gone is 3lbs gone, and hopefully I can get rid of 3 more this week.  I am sooo tired, I can barely even think!  I am not hungry at all this morning. Probably a good thing.  I am going to go raid the fridge to see if I have any no carb food left here at work, as it is probably not a good idea to NOT eat.  Here's to another week.
Skinny On
Michelle

Monday, May 3, 2010

Sugar Free SUCKS!

What more can I say? So I stepped on the scale this morning and for the first time in over a year I gained weight. What the hell is up with that? It is a sick fat chick joke for sure. Like my body knows I only wanted to lose 10lbs, basically to be at 200lbs……..so it added 4 lbs. I am a little pissed. Nothing like seeing your ticker go backwards! But……no worries….my goal is now to lose 14lbs. Either that or smash the scale in to a 1000 pieces. I will not tolerate such insubordination! I watched Ruby last night. I just love her. It was a 2hr special about a 6day detox, with her “fat girls night” friends. I was watching while playing phase 10 with Bill and Jason. Those two are soooo loud, I coulda killed them. But I heard most of it and got the jist. It was very enlightening, educational, motivational and inspiring. I thank Tennie, Ruby and the women for sharing their deepest darkest most painful moments with the world. (re-runs all week BTW) Got me thinking about the “WHY” I am fat, not the how. Yes I have a medical condition that makes it easy to gain weight and hard to lose weight. But seriously, there is a way for me to lose weight, I just choose not to. Why? I should probably do some exploring further on this and have a chat with that little 7 yr old girl who was violated by a drunken pedifile all those years ago. Maybe if I love her a little bit, she won’t feel the need to shield me with an extra layer of protection.


So this morning I ran out of the house without my diet food. Luckily I also left my ATM card in my shorts yesterday, so when I got out of the car to get it, I remembered my food. I made it past the coffee house, and past mc donalds, all the way to my desk. I did however smoke. I have had 3 cigarettes, and have yet to put my patch on. Hmmm. I promptly set the survivor cheesecake on the far side of the office, so I won’t be tempted by that. I then made my coffee. YUK. I used 2tsp of sugar free French vanilla and 1tsp of regular. (I drink the powdered instant French vanilla) I could just gag! Every thing else is going OK. Not upset about what I am having for breakfast. Or lunch….so far anyways….I have only been here for a half hour. Who knows what feelings the day may bring. But for now….Just my coffee sucks.

I have to say, now that it is 2pm, that I am doing great on the diet part. I have had several cups of water….managed to finish my cup of coffee without puking….I am not feeling my usual afternoon post carb crash. I feel good. I have not thought about the cheese cake all day. I think I can actually do this. Well, I know I can, I have lost 50lbs 3 times previously, that was not the hard part. Keeping it off was. I could win the world yo-yo championships…..next up…..walk the dog! For now….I will concentrate on getting the plane off the ground and let the air traffic controller worry about the holding pattern. The cigarettes are getting to me though. I did go without my morning break smoke, but lunch was too hard. And I have to admit, I am about to bail on you right now for another. Might have bit of more than I can chew trying to kick 2 habits in one day. Maybe tomorrow on the cigs. That’s enough for today…see ya on the flip side!

Skinny On

Michelle

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Shopping done

Well I went to the store this morning and bought all sorts of no carb goodies.  I couldn't help from feeling sad as I passed by all my favorite friends on the isles.  I told them all that I may be able to visit them from time to time, but for now, they are a toxic friendship that I will just have to do without.  I came home and culled my bulk items of protein and fiber into little packages, fitting of a quick snack.  Then I packed a bag for work, so all I have to do is grab-n-go tomorrow morning and hopefully have a successful first diet day.  I already feel crabby at the thought of not being able to eat the strawberry cheesecake I am bringing for survivor day.  We have a little thing at work, where we each pick a character from survivor, and if your character gets voted off, you have to bring goodies for every one else playing in the office.  My guy "JT" was voted off so I get to bring this wonderous blend of sugar and eggs, and can't even eat the damn thing.  Oh well, I have eaten enough of that in my life to hold me over for quite a while.  I can't help but be a little overwhelmed by the injustice of having to do this.  I manage to stay the same weight for years on what I eat.  So it must mean that honestly I don't consume more than I exert.  While not healthy, obviously, by virtue of my blood sugar test, unfair none the less. Before I go to bed tonight I will take my measurements....ugh....not looking forward to that!
Skinny On
Michelle

Friday, April 30, 2010

The beginning story, getting prepared

Weight: 210lbs.........Cigarettes: 20+

So here we are, the Friday before the diet. I started my day with a ham and cheese paninni and a raspberry mocha frap. Surely a couple thousand calories I no longer need to apply directly to my hips. At least my freshly laundered jeans fit this morning, so I haven’t outgrown any of my current clothes. WHEW! Though breathing is a bit labored here in my cubicle as I type this. I shouldn’t have to explain to anyone who is over weight why freshly laundered jeans fit different than a pair on their second or third outing. Shopping list for tonight will consist of no carb vedgies and meat stuffs. I will attempt to go my first week as close to NO carb as I can. I have called the pharmacy and my prescription will be waiting for me to pick up later today. I have nicotine patches in my bathroom drawer, I just need a pair of scissors to open them. Ya know how easy it is for an addict of any kind to have excuses to not kick the habit. I would hate for a pair of scissors to be my downfall. I will boil some eggs on Sunday and get a little lunch box tonight to keep things in the fridge at work starting Monday. I think that should do it. Plan written out and executed to perfection should have me ready to succeed from day one.


Skinny On

Michelle